I have always been terrible at keeping my New Year’s resolutions, and I don’t enjoy the feelings that come along with breaking them. Those feelings of guilt, shame, and utter
disappointment in myself.
I did not refrain from making resolutions this year, but I went about it a bit differently.
I should probably call it a mindset rather than a series of separate resolutions.
Being a dedicated list maker, I would have already made a nice little list of New Year’s resolutions. They would have each been very specific goals that I would have wanted to accomplish during the upcoming year.
But life would usually do what it does, and when I didn’t accomplish my goals with the specifications laid out…I would eventually become disappointed, frustrated, and simply give up.
Much like in yoga when I set a dedication for that day’s practice, this year I set a dedication going forward into the new year. My dedication for 2017 is to be open to the Universe and intuitive to what makes me happy.
Over the past few months I realized that I have been consistently making decisions that have a focus of “doing what is best” and therefore I have been putting my happiness last.
As I begin the New Year, I want to be conscious of my own happiness and open to what the Universe had to offer.
I don’t necessarily know what this will entail throughout the year, and I don’t know what this will all bring in the end.
I do know that as of now, which is nearly the end of January, I have actively been taking steps with this dedication in mind.
I have been acknowledging my limitations at work and at home, and reminding myself that this is not a cause to stress but to grow.
I have also been taking steps to being conscious of what I put in my body, and how it makes me feel.
I have been reading, writing, and smiling more, and yelling, holding back, and skipping out less.
Not having a list and specific resolutions to live up to provides me with more room to explore and grow.
For someone who thrives upon lists in her life, this is a step away from my comfort zone.
I like it.
Do you make resolutions? If so, what is your method?